Current mood:
sad
Sammy's Sister's Blog
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Sammy you left me all alone.....
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"friends"
Current mood:
im writing this to vent not to recieve comments or for anyone to even read just to vent....so i really don't care what you have to say about it. i know that everyone needs friends....everyone has at least 1 friend. i personally think that i am a pretty good friend but can be a really shitty friend. that is never my intention but if i ever am a shitty friend then i am sorry.....but back to my venting for anyone whose is reading this. i really just wish that people would just leave me the fuck alone sometimes...i am a very angry person right now that many or any of my friends or family know or need to know what i am dealing with on a daily basis. i have a lot of shit that i...I need to deal with and i really just wish that people would let me deal with it any way i want to. thats the funny thing about people they are always trying to help when most of the time just shutting up and leting me say and do what i think is going to make me feel better. yeah i think that my life is pretty jacked off and most the time i wish i werent around....no this is not a suicide note....thats too easy....i just want people to give me the same respect i give them. i shut the hell up all the time when i feel people are being complete dumbass and am always there to pick up the pieces when asked to.....BUT i am not asking for anyones help!!! just let me do whatever i want....dont sit there and tell me i am stupid or sit and judge me.....and for the sake of all gods glory please stop comparing your shit to mine yeah they both stink but im standing in mine still and i dont know how to get out. i so fucking sick of people telling me i should do this or that or the other. i am doing good if i get out of bed for the day, so be happy that you see me when you see me and if i want your advice i ask for it. i want things in my life right now that i cant have if you have those things that doesnt make me jealous or pissed off but happy for you and if i find some jacked off way of getting what i want and you dont like then too bad. im not trying to step on anyones toes or piss anyone off this is not directed to anyone person so dont be offended and if you are then theres nothing that i can do to change that
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completely hopeless
Current mood:
so i know somepeople may read this and be like wht the fuck but i dont care i am going to write it anyway. there is a girl i know that is going to have a aby and she seriously does not want it....which i will never understand. i dont understand how anyone could want to get rid of a child but live and let live. really i dont think anyone understands how much i want a baby i dont even care if it is my baby or someone elses unwanted baby. i just want to be married and settle down and have a family. i know that thinkgs take time and i need to wait for the perfect guy blah blah blah. but i hurt everytime i see someone with a baby or a kid, it jsut gets worse everytime i see someone different. somedya i know i will be maried with lots of kids and a great guy instead of all these losers i keep meeting but until then i am going to be sad and jealous of every woman i see with a kid thats not me.sad -
fucking sick
Current mood:
so its sunday morning and of course im at work. i got here at 7 and theres never anything to do after i run my reports except answer the phone when it rings. so like 20 minutes ago or so the phone rings i pick it up and another line starts ringing i deal with the lady that wants to cancel her reservationand then pick up the other line whose holding and this is where it get really creepy. this guy in a really low raspy voice is talking to me i ask him what can i do for ya he replies tell me what your wearing i laugh thinking its someone i know and say really is there anything i can help you with(thinking if its one of my friends theyll stop and laugh with me) he starts getting creepier and is all like really what are you wearing. i told my freakin work clothes he asks are you wearing panties which makes me want to vomit i said yea he asks what color are they the whole time im still hoping its one of my friends just trying to see how far they can push me so why dont ya guess. HE FREAKIN DID!!! how sick is that then he asked me how they fit i told him i was going to hang up and please dont call again. what i really wanted to say was im on my freakin rag too was see all the pads in tampons i have in my purse does that turn you on you sick freak. i mean who does that....i can say that if i do find out it was one of my friends or someone i know just remember that payback is a bitch
nauseated